"I don’t know how you do it."

This statement has been said to me a lot.  I feel like it has been said to me quite a bit since I started school and it was also said to me a lot after I was widowed.  

Let me share a secret with you.  I don’t know how I do it either; I just do. 
When I was widowed, I did what I had to do to keep my sanity and to survive.  With that came learning a new sense of normal.  I had to learn how to parent alone and I had to learn what worked and what didn’t.  I think I did a decent job of figuring it all out and just doing what I needed to do to keep my children healthy and happy.  
Since I’ve been back at school, I’ve had a lot of classmates tell me they don’t know how I raise children, manage a family and go to school full-time.  I try to manage my time well, but sometimes I have to let things go.  I have two baskets of laundry sitting in my living room that need to be folded, but they’ll get done when they get done.  Is it ideal?  Is it the way I’ve liked to do things in the past?  No, but sometimes I just need to chill out and that’s where I was at last night.  They’ll get done.  My house isn’t a pig-sty, but I can’t be the perfectionist I like to be when it comes to cleaning and decluttering.  The kids and the homework have to come first for me to be able to do this.  I can’t stay up until midnight doing homework or I’m not productive.  I need about six hours of sleep in order to function (and I wish I could get more!!).  If I’m constantly exhausted, everything is going to suffer.  
I’m not Superwoman, by any means.  I just do what I have to do and I try not to complain about it. Being back in school is hard, but it’s also one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.  I love learning, but best of all, I’m learning so many new things about myself.  I’m challenging myself and I’m showing my children that education is important and that hard work is positive.  
Seven years ago, I learned that I am a strong woman.  I didn’t think I was, but I have since proven to myself that I am.  That strength has carried me through this semester and will continue to carry me through this journey and on to future endeavors.  
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